Wisely or Emotional

I was thinking back, how blissful it is to have good people around me especially on this examination period time. I have parents who went to temple just to pray for me so that I will pass this semester exam, friends who are willing to help me with studies, a friend who I can rely on at last minute, friends who pray for me that I will pass my exam, a sister who is worried for my results, friends who immediately text me right after my exam to ask me how is it, and a lot more.
If I screw up this semester , I am not sure what am I suppose to do. I have two thoughts on my mind, either to leave Utar or just to stay in Utar and carry on my degree. Because what I hate the most is to fail in something. I dont know whether Im thinking wisely or emotionally but this two decision is already fixed on my hand.
I just wouldn't want to disappoint myself, my parents, siblings and friends that I mentioned above because I feel like I always do disappoint people who are close with me. I pray the best for myself so that I will gain back the confidence.
I am leaving my faith on my results to make a choice. I am willing to accept whatever that I got, but now my aim is to work really hard on my tomorrows paper! All the best to all my friends for their exam!

Before the "Now" Begins

This week was the worse week that I ever had throughout my university life,
I can see the dissatisfaction of my best friend towards me, but I totally believe in my friendship with him.
I have the confidence that no matter what happens, we are not going to ruin our friendship..
Sometimes, the less I care is the better. I feel more worried when the other party does not really care anymore.
I know, in friendship, or any other kind of relationships, problem do occur. But what makes the bonding even more stronger is when you forgive the person in fault. When you really do forgive, I am very sure those who hurt you will never want to hurt you again. So , I believe you forgive but you never forget, but I will try my best to gain back your trust.
Now is an exam week, so I would not want to disturb you, and I need to focus on my finals as well. So whatever it takes, I will be aable to accept the fact and move on. Now since , I am not going to interfere in anything anymore, the less I will get hurt. So , I wish not to lose anyone in life becuse of my mistakes, and I want everyone around me to be happy!
This simple theory , which I found,

So I wish things are better now, so 

this is the final week. Lets focus on our finals ! All the best to all my friends on their finals. 

I have already deactivated my facebook account, so the less I know, the less I worry. =)

He is back

Okay, how should I start with?
This friend, considered a long lost friend, is back into my life, omgosh I can feel that Im so happy..
It actually happen because of an event since I wanted to quit the event, which cause a lot of problem to my best friend and him
So he called me to solve the problem, while we spoke about this, it suddenly brought us back to the past topic, and I was literally shocked that he really know my character so much. He knows me very well that he knew why I made this decision !
I thought he remembers nothing, and he was advising me not to trust anyone. The most highlighted point was when he told me, guys they really will like me because I can make them feel secure, reliable and comfortable to be with, Omgosh the moment he told me dis, I actually melted down. Whatever hard feelings I had towards him all abolished just like that.
I was laughing and smiling in the entire conversation, feeling like the same old person back, and it was wonderful. I know he was the person I really cared for more than anyone else before this, but I am just so excited now that my blood stream is rushing into my brain and making me awake!
I spoke to him about my life after he left, the reasons why I left my bestfriends behind and etc.. He is really a good listener indeed... I feel 200% happy when I spoke to him.
At one point when he called me I thought twice before answering the call but now, I really have no regrets. I didnt know it will bring us this far. Thanks thanks thanks for making me happy.. I had no energy for the past few days because of my best friend when we argued , but now after I spoke to him I feel energized. He revived me and Im glad for today for the miracle.
I love my best friend so much because he is the reason why we settled down today!! Its good that i get to tell him what I felt 2 years ago when he left and its awesome to know that he regretted~  =)

MUST GRADUATE

No matter what I must graduate, graduate and graduate and complete my studies by next year December.
At the age of 22 I gotta start working, earn and stand on my own feet.
So all I need to do is to work my ass off this semester, and dont screw any of the papers on this semester. Please God, be with me throughout this period. I am getting stress nowadays, and I want a peaceful mind to study. I am afraid, I will strain myself too much..
All I need to achieve is this thing here! I must GRADUATE , I must GRADUATE , and I really have to Graduate by next year December!