Beauty of each relationship lies within us~

I am not a mind reader, as well as people around me. No one knows what we really do think, but why do we tend to get hurt? Yeah, the reason behind every hurt and pain is that we always keep things to ourselves. Lets say, your friends, lover or family hurt us, we dare not to tell it straight to their face how much of pain they have caused us. 

To be happy, talk to the person who have hurt you what you do really feel instead of keeping things in heart. Because at the end of the day, it will eventually affect your beautiful relationship with that person. 

Before its too late, express out what you really do feel, because once you lose them , those regrets will haunt you in future. Why do we regret when all we can do is to  let go of the ego within us, and express ourselves. When you really do express, the person really do know how important they are to you, and they will never try to make an exit out of your life. 

The most beautiful relationship is when others are keen to know what's going on between the two of us. So, treasure that relationship as you will never be able to find for the same exact relationship once its gone. Hold those who are important to you close to your heart, and tell them how lucky you are for being able to be a part of their life. No matter what happens, try your best to keep those bond always alive. Tell the truth and let them know how you feel, and you will know the value of each of your relationship because the BEAUTY OF EACH RELATIONSHIP LIES WITHIN US.

Wisely or Emotional

I was thinking back, how blissful it is to have good people around me especially on this examination period time. I have parents who went to temple just to pray for me so that I will pass this semester exam, friends who are willing to help me with studies, a friend who I can rely on at last minute, friends who pray for me that I will pass my exam, a sister who is worried for my results, friends who immediately text me right after my exam to ask me how is it, and a lot more.
If I screw up this semester , I am not sure what am I suppose to do. I have two thoughts on my mind, either to leave Utar or just to stay in Utar and carry on my degree. Because what I hate the most is to fail in something. I dont know whether Im thinking wisely or emotionally but this two decision is already fixed on my hand.
I just wouldn't want to disappoint myself, my parents, siblings and friends that I mentioned above because I feel like I always do disappoint people who are close with me. I pray the best for myself so that I will gain back the confidence.
I am leaving my faith on my results to make a choice. I am willing to accept whatever that I got, but now my aim is to work really hard on my tomorrows paper! All the best to all my friends for their exam!

Before the "Now" Begins

This week was the worse week that I ever had throughout my university life,
I can see the dissatisfaction of my best friend towards me, but I totally believe in my friendship with him.
I have the confidence that no matter what happens, we are not going to ruin our friendship..
Sometimes, the less I care is the better. I feel more worried when the other party does not really care anymore.
I know, in friendship, or any other kind of relationships, problem do occur. But what makes the bonding even more stronger is when you forgive the person in fault. When you really do forgive, I am very sure those who hurt you will never want to hurt you again. So , I believe you forgive but you never forget, but I will try my best to gain back your trust.
Now is an exam week, so I would not want to disturb you, and I need to focus on my finals as well. So whatever it takes, I will be aable to accept the fact and move on. Now since , I am not going to interfere in anything anymore, the less I will get hurt. So , I wish not to lose anyone in life becuse of my mistakes, and I want everyone around me to be happy!
This simple theory , which I found,

So I wish things are better now, so 

this is the final week. Lets focus on our finals ! All the best to all my friends on their finals. 

I have already deactivated my facebook account, so the less I know, the less I worry. =)

He is back

Okay, how should I start with?
This friend, considered a long lost friend, is back into my life, omgosh I can feel that Im so happy..
It actually happen because of an event since I wanted to quit the event, which cause a lot of problem to my best friend and him
So he called me to solve the problem, while we spoke about this, it suddenly brought us back to the past topic, and I was literally shocked that he really know my character so much. He knows me very well that he knew why I made this decision !
I thought he remembers nothing, and he was advising me not to trust anyone. The most highlighted point was when he told me, guys they really will like me because I can make them feel secure, reliable and comfortable to be with, Omgosh the moment he told me dis, I actually melted down. Whatever hard feelings I had towards him all abolished just like that.
I was laughing and smiling in the entire conversation, feeling like the same old person back, and it was wonderful. I know he was the person I really cared for more than anyone else before this, but I am just so excited now that my blood stream is rushing into my brain and making me awake!
I spoke to him about my life after he left, the reasons why I left my bestfriends behind and etc.. He is really a good listener indeed... I feel 200% happy when I spoke to him.
At one point when he called me I thought twice before answering the call but now, I really have no regrets. I didnt know it will bring us this far. Thanks thanks thanks for making me happy.. I had no energy for the past few days because of my best friend when we argued , but now after I spoke to him I feel energized. He revived me and Im glad for today for the miracle.
I love my best friend so much because he is the reason why we settled down today!! Its good that i get to tell him what I felt 2 years ago when he left and its awesome to know that he regretted~  =)

MUST GRADUATE

No matter what I must graduate, graduate and graduate and complete my studies by next year December.
At the age of 22 I gotta start working, earn and stand on my own feet.
So all I need to do is to work my ass off this semester, and dont screw any of the papers on this semester. Please God, be with me throughout this period. I am getting stress nowadays, and I want a peaceful mind to study. I am afraid, I will strain myself too much..
All I need to achieve is this thing here! I must GRADUATE , I must GRADUATE , and I really have to Graduate by next year December!

Great 5 people

---> Ju Xian
--->Chakry
--->Alex Cj
---> Mimi Koh
This four people, I thank you all for being one of those people in my life. I don't know how things may end up for all of us, but I sincerely thank you all for bringing a lot of fun into my life. I know clearly that the previous semester I didn't really meet with you people, but when I am with you guy I feel complete. You guys always bully me and I know because you do think I am one of you people. Thank you, for still putting hope on me, and not neglecting me, coz you bring out the best in me. :)
Ju Xian, 
This guy always hope, besides Hann You and Wei Quan, his name will be mentioned in my bestie list! LOL
Actually, he is very mean to me, always call me fat, dark and etc, but he will still come finding for me always, help me whenever I need help, and straight forward with me. He does show his anger to us but we know how to melt him down. He is one of my closest friend for sure because I always like playing with him and bullying him.
Chakry
This guy, always been there to protect me, understands me, treats me good and bad, trust me the most and my problem solver and listener. Thank you to him that he made me know MImi and Alex and eventhough for an entire semester I didn't really spend much time, but in every ups and down he still comes to me. I know when the entire world is against me, he will stand right beside me to to support me.
Alex,
 oh this person comes with such a different personality because we are those who think alike!basically we are some kinda person with great minds think alike. He was the first friend in UTAR to ever gave me an appreciation card with so much of grateful to our friendship. The person that I can share all my ideas with and he can actually improved it! Besides, he has a great leadership skills and I respect him the most.
Mimi
she is just the girl next door with simple mind, and doesn't think bad for others. she is nice in one word and doesn't complain over anything.
I always like when my friends come and find me always because they make feel that I am not forgotten. Thank You for always coming and finding me. I appreciate it with my full heart and soul.

First Card

This would be my first ever card that I had received from a friend of mine that shows me how much he appreciates me. I barely remember when was the last I did received an appreciation card from my friend. I felt very happy and overwhelmed when I got a card from him. I am very sure that I will keep the card until the rest of my life. Thanks Alex, it has been really long after I got a card from a friend. I knew how much you appreciate us and if you're trying,we are staying with you forever!